Even when we don’t understand what He is doing or why. God is so sovereign and strategic that even the worst of storms are for our good. Today I am truly so grateful for my pain because on days like this, I am thankful that I can still smile.
In all that I go through, James 1:2-4 “2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” Resonates with me. I have to remember that life is a journey and through all of the peaks and troughs, I am being made perfect to cross the finish line. I am don't long for Heaven to escape earth anymore, because I have some great grand-babies that I need to meet (Long Life in Jesus name!!!), but I have a deeper understanding that God knows best, period.
To think about everything that my spirit and my mind has endured, I can only say “Thank you God!” that I didn’t physically allow the enemy to take my life. I wondered why God allowed my daughters father to die, and I still don’t know the reason, but, what I do know is that God gave me my daughter in order to save my life. She is what keeps me going when it seems like I will feel rain, every day, the rest of my life. My child is my light on earth.
We never understand the storm, but when we are on the other side we can see exactly what God was doing. When I get through this storm, I will look back and thank God for what He allowed me to endure. I look forward to the day that I will praise God for my sleepless nights. I know that because I am here, because God is allowing me to have breath in my body, He surely has a plan for me. I choose to believe in God and be thankful for life!