Hey Loves!! Happy Holidays!!!!
Ok...Where do I start? I guess that I should just say it. Right? Right! Well maybe I should sugar coat it....Nah! lol But let me say this, I am really private person. I try to keep people out of my personal business with the exception of my parents, my sister and my one best friend. However, I know that my blog is meant to help people and I pray that everybody who reads my post receives encouragement and through my blogs, learn to love themselves and learn how to shine their own crown.
With that being said, I am going to be 98% transparent because I want to help someone who may be going through what I am going through, but at the same time, I don't to make my "husband" feel any kind of way or open a box or expose issues that he may not be able or ready to address. And with that, I am getting a divorce.
I don't say that with joy nor do I say it with remorse. Why? Because I tried and at this point, I don't know what to do. What I do know is that I scream that women should be respected, loved, valued, honored and cherished. But how can I say that when I have to beg my "husband" to text me back, call me, tell me that I am beautiful and etc? I can’t. I don't promote divorce. I am one of those people who genuinely love, love and I love marriage and love the ideal that two people chose to put everyone else second and put each other first, after God of course. And I have never had that, but I deserve that because I have that to give. The moment that I realized my "husband" could not give me that was the moment that I found out that he spent Thanksgiving with his ex-girlfriend and her family and offered me no apology and showed no remorse about the situation.
For me, my divorce is not about leaving my "husband" but it is about coming back to myself. I lost the love for myself because I felt that I was less than all of the women texting and messaging my husband. If I feel like I have to compete with your sideline, Baby she can have you.